Aimless

So I am still here, although I have made another blog on wordpress where there are more recent posts. this one seems to have been archived and I haven't really paid attention to it, so there is that. Most of the writing I have saved elsewhere.
So what is new with you?

what have I been up to?

a little of this and a little of that.

It was a nice summer. I have been doing a lot of non public writing. trying to finish some knitting and stuff. you?

Quilt center with swap blocks

Other blocks

Working with bags O blocks. Bobs

Making a baby quilt

for all of us

you are beautiful

all of your flawed furious unstoppable selves

all of your self doubt and self loathing and fears are groundless

you are floating in a medium of unspeakable beauty

unmeasurable

unfathomable consciousness

our connections to each other 

are no less than the gossamer threads of angels light

allowing us to be

and be loved 

as we are

we are loved and love

who we are now

all of our pain and sorrow

all of our alone ness and fear of failure

and all of our fury 

relieved

shed like a sad skin

peeled like an orange

to reveal our inner beauty

and all the while 

as you are revealing your inner layer 

you are leaving behind the scent of your beauty your 

fragrant inner life force

instantly recognizable

and you are home 

right where you are 

you belong

wherever you are

this is what makes us beautiful

this is it

not the outer shell that fools worship and discard

but the soft and shaky real you

you are all beautiful

Encaustic panels

painted with encaustic medium and sinopia pigments

painted with prepared encaustic colors from R&F and colors made with powdered pigments and embedded thread

Collage with key and old jewelry, origami and tissue papers, gold leaf and ink and vegetation

Practice.

Read an entry on nancycrawford.com. Sometimes I hesitate to begin because my inner critic is in full sail. Today I listened to James Patterson book to mute her. This may or may not be finished. Made with encaustic its support. Gold leaf and gold powder. Sunflower leaf print on rice paper and r&f encaustic paint.

Encaustic mixed media 8 by 8

Encaustic

leaves

I am not a professional painter or poet but I do dabble. 

Because I love colors and painting and poetry. to me they represent the best of us. 

Love the Nancy Crawford videos! I would love to take a class with her if our paths ever cross.

ENKAUSTIKOS cadmium Green medium

ENKAUSTIKOS alizarin crimson

ENKAUSTIKOS ultramarine blue

ENKAUSTIKOS Burnt Umber  

Cadmium green light wax stick

ultramarine blue pigment from SINOPIA

waxed book binding thread from on line

two small jars encaustic gesso

MDF 24 by 24 inch 1/4 inch board

five aluminum tins

2 boars hair brushes

1 fan brush

1 metal brush

wood nail stick

metal pallette knife

awl 

micro cleaning cloth 

heat gun

flat griddle 

gloves

jan 30 2016

now that we have conquered nature

as it were

and stand uneasily amongst ourselves 

limply holding the reins

eyes seeking to meet each other and then quickly looking away

what now?

do we derive to sustain us in this hall of mirrors

and only in our dreams do we meet each other

as we once were

only in the night of the unconscious 

do we ascertain the the danger 

and the approach of passion -

like lying on a landing strip as the beast 

roars above you 

landing or leaving it did not matter

only the huge shuddering of a body that revealed you

thrilling and

shattering your claim to self sufficiency

and in the aftermath

the only thing you can remember is the smell of the fumes burning your nose and the thrumming of your ears as you struggle to recover from the noise of it.

in the realm of present currency  

we would do well to dwell in this dream, 

where souls are all of one and each other 

and not derived from this 

morass of self identification 

impugned on shards of silvered glass.